Sunday, December 28, 2008

Introducing the most wonderfulest baby boy ever.

This week as been crazy - as I'm sure you can imagine - but it has also been so wonderful. The birth went very, very well. (If you've never been paralyzed from the chest down, I'd recommend trying it one day. Its super weird.) My doctor said the surgery could not have gone better. And both she and the assisting doctor said they've never seen a baby's head that high (when the mother was full term). They both agreed that I could've waited another nine months and wouldn't have gone into labor on my own. Its not that I ever doubted my decision to move forward with the Cesarean Birth, but it was certainly validating.

John was born 8 lb 4 oz, 21 inches long, and perfectly healthy. They tested his blood sugar a couple of times over the first day, and he was always in the healthy range. Take that gestational diabetes.

He also sleeps like a champ. He usually sleeps in two to three hour stretches. Except for there is generally at least one four to five hour stretch in the night. I realize that one week is not really enough to establish a pattern... I'm just saying its going well so far.

And he's so cute right? I know I'm a biased new mother and all that... but I'm pretty sure he's so cute.

Friday, December 19, 2008

A Cesarean Birth

WARNING: This is like the longest post ever. I have a lot of thoughts on what I'm going through, and its all spilling out here.

So, at the appointment this morning, we found out that we ended up with Option #3. As you can imagine, I'm a bit disappointed that my baby and my body are not cooperating with me on this. The Cesarean birth is planned for Monday, December 22nd, at 9am. The bad news is that its not what I wanted. The good news is that my pregnancy is over in just a few days and I finally get to meet my son!!!

The reasons for the Cesarean Birth are the same as I explained in the post I linked to above. However, I do want to clarify a few things, since I don't think my last post on it was very clear. Several of the comments and emails I received made it seem as though this issue is *just* about the size of the baby. Its really not. I would not be afraid of pushing out a 14 lb baby if I were given the opportunity. The problem is that I'm not getting that opportunity. And I know that the ultrasound is not known for its accuracy in predicting size, but its just as likely to be a pound under the real weight as it is to be a pound over.

The real issue is that his head is still "bollattable". Basically this means that his head is not down in my pelvic bones like it should be. Because of this I'm not dilated and my body is no where near labor - and won't be unless this were to change. Now, this situation is complicated because of the gestational diabetes, and again, not just because of the size. The fact is that babies with gestational diabetes not only gain more weight than other babies, but the WAY they gain weight is different - with a concentration of fat in the head, neck, and shoulders. This, of course, complicates delivery - with extra risk to his neck and shoulders. Well, extra risk to my body too, but I'm not so concerned about that. If it weren't for the gestational diabetes, I could wait until I was 42 weeks to see if things work themselves out. But I can't afford to do that, or I elevate the risk that we have to break his shoulders to get him out... or I'll labor for a long time and end up with a Cesarean Birth anyway.

Either way, it doesn't seem like that's going to happen anyway. We had a great talk with my OB-GYN today. Who, by the way, I love. If I may just take a minute: I could not be happier with ending up with Dr. Rosenberg. She has been so gracious and understanding of the fact that my vision of birth has undergone some serious demolition in the last few months. And, she has never been pushy about any one course of action. At every step of the way she has made sure that we are informed of what was going on and what all of our options were. She is not the one that made the decision to move forward with the Cesarean birth. And she has also made it very clear that if I change my mind between now and Monday, one phone call to her will have it canceled, and we'll just move forward with my next scheduled appointment, which she didn't cancel just in case. She also let us know that she is on call in triage all day on Sunday, and I can go in again and have her check to see if anything changes over the next couple of days. Today at our appointment I had to really work to get her to tell me what she would do in my place--she didn't want to unduly influence my decision at all. I'm just really grateful that I ended up with such a fantastic OB-GYN, since I didn't want one at all in the beginning. I couldn't be more blessed in this regard (and its nice to have *something* with this pregnancy).

ANYWAYS, one thing I did get from the conversation with the doctor this morning is that if his head is not in place by this point, its not even really likely that its going to be. And beyond what she says is the norm - I'm listening to my body. I don't intuitively feel like labor is coming. I haven't any contractions. And I just haven't *felt* it. Its nice that the medical science backs me up this, but it doesn't matter anyway because I feel like I know whats going on with my body.

I'm doing okay with all of this, though. I've been reading Birthing From Within in preparation for labor. I'd actually put it down for a while when all of this started, because I was feeling upset that I wasn't going to need all of its special little tips for a natural birth. But, on a whim, I picked it up again this week, and I'm SO GLAD because I came across Chapter 25: How to Give Birth if You Need a Cesarean. The chapter starts off by encouraging us to use a better term than c-section. We're calling the birth of my son a Cesarean Birth. Its not a sectioning or a separation. He is being born.

She also gives some incredible tips in this chapter on ways to create a special environment so that we can have the kind of birthing experience we want, even though it is not the method we would have preferred. A lot of the burden for this falls on William's shoulders - describing to me everything he can see that I can't see, being my advocate to make sure I get to hold the baby as soon as possible, going with the baby everywhere he goes that we are never separated from him entirely, etc - and I'm so grateful for a husband who is willing and happy to step up to the plate to make this a great experience for our family.

So, we're going in with a game plan, and I'm feeling good about it. I've come a long way from the natural birth and the birth center that I had originally intended, but I've come to terms with that. Birthing From Within is a great book for many reasons, but I'm particularly in love with the very balanced approach that Pam England took towards the need for medical interventions in some cases. The fact of the matter is that if this were happening to me more than 500 years ago (Cesarean births were first successfully performed, with both the baby and mother surviving, in the 1500s) me and my baby would probably both end up dead.

There are a few studies out there that suggests extra risks to babies born via Cesarean Birth, namely allergies and asthma. These studies are sadly lacking, however. I can't find one that included more than a few hundred babies, and I've taken enough statistics classes to know that's a desperately sad sample for this kind of study. Especially given that the studies have all mostly included babies that were born EARLY (before 37 weeks) via Cesarean Birth, and so would have had underdeveloped lungs and immune systems anyway. My baby will be 39 weeks and 1 day, so that's not really an issue. AND, most of these studies make a point of saying that babies are especially at risk if their parents have asthma or allergy issues (wouldn't they anyway? - genetics, right?) and neither William nor I do--in fact, William has a Superman immune system. Again, not an issue. This just isn't something I'm especially worried about.

The baby will also be at higher risk for blood clotting issues, which means that I'm going to allow the vitamin K shot that I was otherwise going to decline. There are, again, studies linking the vitamin K shot with leukemia, but none of these studies are conclusive, and most of their findings don't even make sense. These studies are worse than the ones linking Cesarean Births and asthma. I was going to decline the vitamin K shot not because I thought it was dangerous, but just because I thought it was unnecessary. A baby having a normal birth, and then being breastfed usually has normal amounts of vitamin K within a week and doesn't need a boost. Even most formulas are fortified with vitamin K these days. BUT, I'm not having a 'normal' birth, so that changed my mind on that one.

Okay, I think those are all of my thoughts for now. If you made it through this post I applaud you. Longest post ever.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Have You...

I saw this on my friend Jenni's blog, and it looked so fun I wanted to play too!


  1. Started your own blog

  2. Slept under the stars

  3. Played in a band

  4. Visited Hawaii

  5. Watched a meteor shower

  6. Given more than you can afford to charity

  7. Been to Disneyland/Disney World

  8. Climbed a mountain

  9. Held a praying mantis

  10. Sang a solo

  11. Bungee jumped

  12. Visited Paris

  13. Watched a lightning storm at sea

  14. Taught yourself an art from scratch

  15. Adopted a child

  16. Had food poisoning

  17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty

  18. Grown your own vegetables

  19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France

  20. Slept on an overnight train

  21. Had a pillow fight

  22. Hitch hiked

  23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill

  24. Built a snow fort

  25. Held a lamb

  26. Gone skinny dipping

  27. Run a Marathon

  28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice

  29. Seen a total eclipse

  30. Watched a sunrise or sunset

  31. Hit a home run

  32. Been on a cruise

  33. Seen Niagara Falls in person

  34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors ("ancestors" really needs to be better defined here)

  35. Seen an Amish community

  36. Taught yourself a new language

  37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied (when I was younger. much, much younger)

  38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person

  39. Gone rock climbing/repelling

  40. Seen Michelangelo’s David

  41. Sung karaoke

  42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt

  43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant

  44. Visited Africa

  45. Walked on a beach by moonlight

  46. Been transported in an ambulance

  47. Had your portrait painted/sketched

  48. Gone deep sea fishing

  49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person

  50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris

  51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling

  52. Kissed in the rain

  53. Played in the mud

  54. Gone to a drive-in theater

  55. Been in a movie

  56. Visited the Great Wall of China

  57. Started a business

  58. Taken a martial arts class

  59. Visited Russia

  60. Served at a soup kitchen

  61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies

  62. Gone whale watching

  63. Got flowers for no reason

  64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma

  65. Gone sky diving

  66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp

  67. Bounced a check

  68. Flown in a helicopter

  69. Saved a favorite childhood toy

  70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial

  71. Eaten Caviar

  72. Pieced a quilt

  73. Stood in Times Square

  74. Toured the Everglades

  75. Been fired from a job

  76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London

  77. Broken a bone

  78. Been on a speeding motorcycle

  79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person

  80. Published a book

  81. Visited the Vatican

  82. Bought a brand new car

  83. Walked in Jerusalem

  84. Had your picture in the newspaper

  85. Read the entire Bible

  86. Visited the White House

  87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating (fish count, right?)

  88. Had chickenpox

  89. Saved someone’s life

  90. Sat on a jury

  91. Met someone famous

  92. Joined a book club

  93. Lost a loved one

  94. Had a baby (okay, so I haven't actually *had* the baby yet.)

  95. Seen the Alamo in person

  96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake

  97. Been involved in a law suit(It was a class action lawsuit, and I didn't know I was involved until my check came in the mail, but whatever.)

  98. Owned a cell phone

  99. Been stung by a bee

  100. Read an entire book in one day.

  101. Fallen in Love

I'm supposed to tag 10 people, but I don't want to. It was fun, and I think everyone should do it if they want to. And then, if you want to tag 10 people, you can. :)

Friday, December 12, 2008

Something Christmas-y

  1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Paper! Love to rip into those presents.

  2. Real tree or Artificial? Artificial: all Christmas, no mess.

  3. When do you put up the tree? Day after Thanksgiving. Duh! But I am trying to advocate for day after Halloween and start with Thanksgiving decorations.

  4. When do you take the tree down? When Leah Marie says to.

  5. Do you like eggnog? Not my favorite. I'll take a swig but only for the holidays.

  6. Favorite gift received as a child ? Transformers Complete set of jets (can't remember their names, but you could put them together into a bigger robot. AWESOME!)

  7. Hardest person to buy for? I rule at Christmas shopping.

  8. Easiest person to buy for? I rule at Christmas shopping. Now, the funnest person to buy for? that's Leah Marie, hands down.

  9. Do you have a nativity scene? Yes

  10. Mail or email Christmas cards? Neither. No motivation.

  11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? can't think of one.

  12. Favorite Christmas Movie? Too hard. From the classics, I've gotta go with It's a Wonderful Life, but there are so many others. I really enjoy Muppet's Christmas Carol, Christmas Vacation, Christmas Story, and Nightmare Before Christmas. Look, I love movies. Whattayagonnado?

  13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? It varies.

  14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? No.

  15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Food

  16. Lights on the tree? Yes. Pre-lit. See #3

  17. Favorite Christmas song? O Holy Night and Breath of Heaven

  18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? This year, stay at home.

  19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? Yes

  20. Angel on the tree top or a star? There is a big bow on top of my tree. I'd choose the star over the Angel. No Angel wants a tree branch up its robe.

  21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Open one Christmas Eve. The rest in the morning.

  22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? People who don't get into the Spirit of it.

  23. Favorite ornament theme or color? I don't have a favorite. I like all things Christmas.

  24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? Food.

  25. What do you want for Christmas this year? I am easily pleased

  26. Who is most likely to respond to this? Whoever wants to!


I had an appointment this morning. We did an ultra sound (they look mostly the same as last time, but I will post pictures of them later) and the baby weighs about 8 lbs. He's big. You may be thinking that 8 lbs is a pretty average weight for a newborn. But my baby is not born. He is still in my body and still growing. Herein lies the problem.

The baby's head has even not "dropped" and I'm only dilated to about a centimeter. My doctor's concern is that his head may be too big to drop into my pelvis. That will be, of course, bad news.

One of three things will happen:

1. At my appointment next Friday the baby's head will have dropped and/or I will have dilated much more. In this case, we will probably schedule an induction on the 22nd or 23rd. If I have dilated, an induction is more likely to be successful and will give me my best shot at a vaginal birth. If I have dilated and the baby's head as not dropped, we may still be able to try induction. If I have not dilated, its a no go. Dilation is the key to induction.

2. The baby's head will have dropped, but I will not have dilated much more. In this case, we will wait another week to see what happens. If I'm not dilated, an induction will do no good and probably end up in a c-section. BUT, if his head has dropped, there is a good chance I will eventually dilate on my own (The head pushing on the cervix is generally what makes it dilate). We will be able to wait until my due date. I will not be able to go past my due date (baby too big). If I don't dilate on my own by 40 weeks, I'll likely have a c-section on or around my due date, the 28th.

3. The baby's head will not have dropped and I will not have dilated. In this case, we will schedule a c-section, probably for the 24th. Its unusual for a baby's head to not have dropped by this point, and if it hasn't in another week, its most likely because his head is too big to fit into my pelvis, and he's not going to.

That's the news. I'm.... dealing with it.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

A Variety

First, I was tagged for this on Kathy's blog. I know I just did this recently, but since I've reformatted my computer since then, I can redo it.

4th picture in the 4th folder of pictures you have on your computer:

I know, right? That's exciting stuff. Maybe my fourth folder is my digi-scrapping materials. Just maybe.

Now I tag four people:

  • Mubba

  • Chelsea Marie

  • Rachael

  • Jenn

Second, if you're into the Twilight Mania, you've got to read this. I love me some Twilight, and I love me some Facebook, and this was a whole lot of funny with the two put together.

Third, I posted this video last year, but I just ran across it on this blog, and it was still funny. I'm posting it again.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

A Christmas Tagging

My friend Christine sent me this via email. Since I recently sent out one of these things, I decided to blog this one instead.

Change all the answers so that they apply to you.

  1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? I prefer bags, but paper is cheaper.

  2. Real tree or Artificial? Artificial, preferably with a pine scented candle.

  3. When do you put up the tree? Day after Thanksgiving. I must. Its tradition.

  4. When do you take the tree down? January 2nd. Again, tradition

  5. Do you like eggnog? Yes!

  6. Favorite gift received as a child ? Trampoline. Or electric keyboard.

  7. Hardest person to buy for? Brother

  8. Easiest person to buy for? Husband

  9. Do you have a nativity scene? Yes

  10. Mail or email Christmas cards? *If* I did them, I would mail them.

  11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? Some jewelry that my brother's girl friend (at the time) picked out. We had... different tastes.

  12. Favorite Christmas Movie? A Christmas Carol, Patrick Stewart version

  13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Usually in November.

  14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? No.

  15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Fudge

  16. Lights on the tree? Yes. Pre-lit. See #3

  17. Favorite Christmas song? O Holy Night and Little Drummer Boy

  18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? This year, stay at home.

  19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? Yes

  20. Angel on the tree top or a star? There is a big bow on top of my tree, actually. But if I had to choose between a star or an angel I'd choose the star.

  21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Open one Christmas Eve. The rest in the morning.

  22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? People who don't get into the Spirit of it.

  23. Favorite ornament theme or color? I don't have a favorite. I like all things Christmas.

  24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? I'm not picky about food either.

  25. What do you want for Christmas this year? For Christmas I would like my baby to be born before Christmas. So that I can eat fudge.

  26. Who is most likely to respond to this? Whoever wants to!

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Freakin' Funny.

Puppet Edward is almost as awesome as Puppet Angel. There's just something funny about puppet vampires.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

My favorite new snack.


2 sheets, 24 carbs

Plus this.

No carbs.

I call it the diabetic's Oreo. Yummy.

At the top of my list of things to eat when I'm not pregnant any more: Double Stuf Oreos.


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